I have this irregular cycle of boredom. Simply put, it's a period for me to lose interests in everything. It comes in different levels, some last for merely days, some weeks, and I even had one that was around for almost a month. Imagine that, a month of boredom.

When it's time for this cycle to kick in, I honestly can't find any motivation to do anything. Small things come and go and I'll get excited for a short while, but the big picture remains: I'm bored and nothing interests me anymore.

At times, it was a 'positive' cycle. I remember one period late in uni days when I felt I had achieved all there to achieve -- not-too-shabby academic records, no financial insecurities, lots of great friends -- and wanted nothing more out of life. Other times, it was 'negative' -- like, why would I want to do this and that anyway, I know it'd turn out so-so, or worse, bad, in the end.

These days it's the negative cycle. I can't find a reason to go home early. Why would I? What's home waiting for me? An empty room, two -- oh yeah, always have two -- packs of instant noodles, nothing special on TV (now that The Amazing Race is over,) and not much else.

You know, what's funny is that all along it's been the same empty room and the same instant noodles. Minds work in mysterious ways...

Anyway. So, I've been 'indulging' in work -- putting in a lot more hours than necessary. The result has been some ephemeral geeky satisfaction, which is good for my ego and perhaps my career, but nothing beyond that. 'Cause in the end it's still back to an empty room, instant noodles, and nothing on TV.

Sporting and musical activities have been fun -- rarely are they not -- but I have been, to be honest, autopiloting through them as well. Da Vinci came and went -- BTW, did you see the ending with Langdon and the French gal? I took it as a personal shout-out -- and X3 -- what's up with Halle Berry's hair getting shorter and shorter, I reckon by X10 it'll be a bald Storm -- is next. Maybe there's something there.

I am a hundred percent certain this will pass, it always did. So, I'll just coast along 'til it does, no point fighting it, a waste of energy. Not that I have too much left after all those badminton, basketball, jamming, and working-late sessions. Well, one avenue is looking promising, let's just play along and see where it leads me.

BTW, if you see ads for some flu medicine and you immediately think of a certain person, is it a good or a bad sign?

I can't believe the proxy server blocks my URL as well! At times like this, knowing your IP address by heart really comes handy.

Update
Well, well, seems like loneliness (if that's what it is) is not uncommon here. Singaporeans are the Web's second loneliest users -- who would've thought...

Current music: Redd Kross - Yesterday Once More
Current mood: happy -- still